Thursday, April 7, 2011
So i am suppose to start my new job tonight.......DH doesn't think its a good idea and wants me to find somewhere else or just not start work yet. He said he would lay off the pestering...yeah right (rolls eyes out) He said that when i quit The Grand. I am really nervous, but i think i will give it a go. If i just don't think it will work out i can always just decline the position, right? I had a dream last night that i quit when i got there. I am used to serving in a high class resort and this place is pretty laid back and they are having me wear a "turkey testical festival" Tshirt??? I have not seen these shirts and i may not want to wear it at all. (its a festival they have the day before thanksgiving) I DONT want to wear it at all, its not even near thanksgiving..... I am sick thinking about this. If there is a big pair of turkey balls on this Tshirt i am not friggin wearing it in public, what a freaking JOKE. I am nervous ill have to walk out on my first day......i hate this.
I got the book Empty Cradle, Broken Heart the other day from the library. I don't think i can read it. It was making me relive all the pain and anguish from the very beginning. As soon as i started feeling that huge black hole sucking me in i had to close the book. I skipped ahead to the partners chapter (which is far too short IMO) and read through that. I will also read through the children/siblings chapter. I am not sure i will be able to finish the book though. I need something more inspiring i think, and not so factual. Makes me feel even more like a statistic, which i have seemed to be a part of my entire life (rolls eyes out again) boy i am just too darn pessimistic, i miss the ole positive optomistic Krystal i used to be. sigh
I have not seen the Black Blazer with the stickers again yet....I think i will pick up a card today and fill it out and maybe drive by the bank and see if it is there. I feel like a weirdo stalker, lol. ( i have not looked for the truck like a TOTAL weirdo)
~Krystal
I got the book Empty Cradle, Broken Heart the other day from the library. I don't think i can read it. It was making me relive all the pain and anguish from the very beginning. As soon as i started feeling that huge black hole sucking me in i had to close the book. I skipped ahead to the partners chapter (which is far too short IMO) and read through that. I will also read through the children/siblings chapter. I am not sure i will be able to finish the book though. I need something more inspiring i think, and not so factual. Makes me feel even more like a statistic, which i have seemed to be a part of my entire life (rolls eyes out again) boy i am just too darn pessimistic, i miss the ole positive optomistic Krystal i used to be. sigh
I have not seen the Black Blazer with the stickers again yet....I think i will pick up a card today and fill it out and maybe drive by the bank and see if it is there. I feel like a weirdo stalker, lol. ( i have not looked for the truck like a TOTAL weirdo)
~Krystal
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