The Egg

So i was reading posts on Diaperswappers.com and came across a post asking if you put God or your husband first. This got me to thinking about the question myself. I just dont understand HOW you can get "husband" without God in the first place?  God gave us the right to having a husband, right? He gives us the road map to relationships and how they function. In every way that they do. Also brought up, is how many wives put children before their husbands as well. Now i am fairly new to my new found relationship with God and it is just blooming honestly. I though i had always just known him, believed or whatever. But i realized quickly after the recent SLAP in the face and loss of our daughter that i never really did know God, i never had a "relationship" with him either. i thought i did, but did i ever put time into it? no. Did i ever pray for more than just my own selfish needs and wants? not really. Was my marriage great and perfect? not even close! Reading through the bible lately has opened my eyes in so many ways and is continually doing so moment after moment. Its our life manual really. So how can one put anything else before God? That is if you dont want a rude awakening anyways, without a true net to catch you woven by Gods grace and love? He is the beginning and the end. So that is where i feel relationships should begin and end, in a circle of Gods love. God gives us great examples of how relationships should work, especially that of a husband and wife. In turn having a healthy relationship between husband and wife shows children how healthy relationships work and should function, between God, a spouse and children. It is a 3 in one deal. Just as God, the Holy Spirit and Jesus work, they are one, a 3 on one series. Like an egg. The Shell, the Whites and the yolk, all are one.  God, Spouse, Children. They are all of one and all work together in a series that can create a circle of life that is in the liking of God and his good grace. I am new at this, embarrassingly. I will have been married 4 years this Friday to a man who has been in my life for just about 15 and the father of my children for 12+ years. I am just figuring this all out now. Sad but true and happy at the same time. The bittersweet truth. OH how that describes our entire relationship, bittersweet. I love him, i deeply do. God and my hubby ;) God gave me my husband, he gave me my children, he gave me this breath of life, and i am thankful. SO why would i not look to him for the manual to this life he has made and given me? Its honest, brutal, hard and what any other adjective i can conjure up, that's life. Many of these woman were talking about "What if you had to choose the life of your child over the life of your husband!?" or "So you put the needs of your husband over those of your children!?" I REALLY dont think that is what the original poster of the thread was getting at and i DONT think that is what God refers to either as in putting God first, husband next and then children. Its the RELATIONSHIPS! Not the wants or needs ect. If the two spouses have good relationships with God their marriage should flourish, If the marriage is good the children SEE that good example and know what to look for in their own spouses AND a good relationship with God teaches us how to raise our children, thus teaching our children how to raise theirs. Boy, i hope i am getting this right! Either way, these are things i am working on and i just wanted to share because of that lovely thread.

* If youd like to take a peek here is the link: http://diaperswappers.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1197821

here is what my response on the thread was :

I have yet to read through all the responses so pardon me if what i say is already on one of them....
I have been trying my hardest to understand God since we lost our daughter, a far deeper relationship than i have ever had before, and its not easy, for me anyways. For one i know my relationship with God should be first, because he is the one showing me the way to a deeper relationship with my husband. He has become my life manual to all of my relationships, even those with my children. That being said a good relationship with my husband has to come next because WE as a team show our children how healthy relationships should be, and how i hope they would have relationships with God, their spouses and children. It starts with God, that is where the whole thing started in the first place and we as parents show our children how relationships should be, with God and others. God, spouse, children. its almost an all in one deal, just as God, the Holy Spirit and Jesus are. ONE. a series of one i guess. That is how i am interpreting things as of now and i hope it is working out.....

Anyways......
Thanks for reading and God bless!

~Krystal