So i was told i am a huge downer. yay. I know its true too. but i cant see how people can expect me to be shitting rainbows when life has been throwing me some serious curve balls, and nailing me directly in the heart. That same person told me i should just get used to it. Life sucks and it always will. yay. Somthing i can look forward too! More crap. NOT helping my pessimisim what so ever.
Today is the service for Tina, i am feeling so so sad, deep inside. Its been 3months and 1 day since Stella's memorial. Then, i had some painkillers for dealing with it, now the numbness has wore off and I have to deal with it all, emotions and everything. God give me strength please. Be also with her children in this hard time.
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It is hard to be optomistic when you are hit hard so many times so close together... Although, there is a rainbow after the rain. Just because you don't see it yet, doesn't mean it isn't there. Remember that we are all right there with you! You will never be alone in grief. Whoever told you that you are a downer, they are suffering in their own ways. Maybe they're blocking it all out by ignoring it... not the best way, but still the way of some. What YOU need is an ear to listen to what you are feeling, and a great big hug when you are done sharing your grief. You have many that are here for you to do just that.
Take comfort in the knowledge that Tina, Aunt Tina, Uncle David, Grandpa, Great Grandma... all those that are in heaven before us, they are taking care of Stella until the time that you can be with her again, be with all of them again.
Take comfort in the knowledge that you have a lot to do here on Earth before it is your time to join them. You are a wonderful mother, sister, wife, daughter, niece, aunt, godmother, friend and missionary of God's love.
You are suffering, and have the right to grieve in your own way. Just don't forget that there are a lot of people that need you right here, right now.
I love you dearly, and together we will all make it through the trials of life, the joys of life... we will see the rainbow together.
xoxoxoxoxo
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