I started another blog today. Since ihave so many vivid dreams i decieded to document them and interprate them as well. You can find it here. Dreamwithme-KKaye.blogspot.com
Hope everyone is having a good day.
God bless and Thanks for reading!
~Krystal
Hope everyone is having a good day.
God bless and Thanks for reading!
~Krystal
1 comments:
Hi my name is Jen, I came across your blog while I was looking for info on coping with stillbirth. I to have a star in heaven I lost my precious Abigail Jean on December 10, 2010 ironically I to was exactly 37 weeks and 4 days (wich is what caught my attention) I spent the entire day reading every post from start until today it was as if I myself was typing the words on the screen you put into words the feelings I myself couldn't get out. The one feeling that scares me is the anger, for weeks I have been consumed by the anger and left no room for anything else, you see when I married my husband he already had 2 daughters and really didn't want anymore children I had to "talk him into" having our son, and then a year later I wanted 1 more it took me another year to talk him into and then we spent 10 years struggling with infertility until we finally gave up and decided that it wasn't in the cards for us. I was getting ready to have gastric bypass when we discovered I was 22 weeks pregnant with Abigail (13 years after my son) I was over the moon with excitement and started praying for a girl, within 15 weeks I learned that God had given me everything I had asked and waited so long for only to have it all taken away, I know the anger. My friend asked me last week When I was going to Thank God for allowing me to be her mommy and my first reaction was Yeah right thank Him for what He took her away, but I haven't been able to stop thinking about that question since , then it hit me if I continue to let the anger consume me I will miss all the LOVE, not just the love between me and my daughter, but I still have 2 step-daughters, my son and my husband at home, and I was still blessed with my Abigail even if it was for only a short time. There is no room for LOVE when your heart is all full of anger, and I am sure that Stella does not want that for her Mommy. I am on facebook as Jen Kalnins if you would like to look me up, I would love to be able to talk to you, maybe we could help each other get through this journey we are on. With Love Jen
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