Shoes

I was lurking around on my stillbirth forum today. I lurk on days when i just dont have anything to say or the words in me are just so pessimistic that its probly better i dont respond to anything but hope to find some kinds of positive feeling so that i may move on. Well anyways i ran across a new member. It just BREAKS my heart when i meet new mothers enduring this pain. I read through her story, read her blog and found this wonderful poem. This explains so very well, the feeling of losing a child and the emotions that come along with it. Here is her blog:

http://xedennazalea.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2011-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-10%3A00&updated-max=2012-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-10%3A00&max-results=5

She is very new in this journey, a week and a day actually. :*( i remember quite well how i felt in those early days of grief.  Somedays still creep in and feel as fresh as those days. My prayers are out to her and her family, please send some yourself, the power of prayer is a most wonderful magical healing tool.<3

Shoes

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in other's eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not
theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don't hurt quite so
much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think
about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

~xedennazalea

Waianae, HI

God Bless and thank you for reading <3