a poem

written by a fellow baby loss mother:

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Hello old friend,



Oh yes you know



I lost my child a while ago.



No, no please don’t look away



And change the subject



It’s ok.



You see at first I couldn’t feel,



It took so long, but now it’s real.



I hurt so much inside you see



I need to talk,



Come sit with me?



You see,



I was numb for so very long,



And people said,



“My, she is so strong.”



They did not know I couldn’t feel,



My broken heart made all unreal.



But then one day, as I awoke



I clutched my chest,



began to choke,



Such a scream,



such a wail,



Broke from me..



My child!



My child!



The horror of reality.



But everyone has moved on,



you see,everyone except for me.



Now, when I need friends most of all,



Between us there now stands a wall.



My pain is more than they can bear,



When I mention my child,



I see their blank stare.



“But I thought you were over it,



”Their eyes seem to say-



-No, no,



I can’t listen to this, not today.



So I smile and pretend, and say,



“Oh, I’m ok”.



But inside I am crying,



as I turn away.



And so my old friend,



I shall paint on a smile,



As I have from the start,



You never knowing all the while,



All I’ve just said to you in my heart