Expectations

I dont understand some peoples mentalities, at all. I was reamed out yesterday and told how selfish I was because I didn't call someone who just had a baby to help out with he issues with breastfeeding. Because I dont run around and call people who are having babies to offer my assistance even though THEY have not called me to ask for help in any way. YA FRIGGN WONDER!? I have been helping out people and putting my all into this grief BULLSHIT from the start. I HATE IT! I dont want to do this, I dont WANT to feel like this but this is the fucked up life I got handed and have to deal with. What I DONT have to deal with is jerks telling me I am selfish because I didn't offer my help to someone I had no idea had issues to begin with OR even asked me for my help. FUCK OFF. Not only am I grieving my own daughter I am also grieving the children I wont get the chance to have in the future, Life is such bullshit. If some one came to me and asked for help I would be of any assistance I could. But people dont for a reason. I am the shitty reminder of all the crap that happens, the plague of the baby bearing world. And that is what I have to live with, I am finalized with loss and that SUCKS. I dont understand how someone could expect ME to live with that? Who is the selfish one again?