Life....The Great Preoccupation

Sigh....I will start out there because that is where I am. Somewhere lost between a breath and a giant sigh. I cant stand how my life has become nothing but a preoccupation, and one I have no passion towards. Nothing in life gives me that excitement, hope, arousal, anticipation, passion or energy it once did. I feel like I am waking up and just going through the motions, one after the other. My hope is gone, yet again, for having a rainbow. This storm cloud will loom over my head until the day I die while I fill one preoccupation to the next with no passion. This is what makes life SUCK. I want to give up.