3/31/11

It was especially hard to get out of bed this morning. I wanted to rise early and clean the house so i could bring the kids to the park and spend the day outdoors. But the dream that i had last night kept me in bed (or on the couch where i had slept) for a long while just thinking about the dream. It was a pregnancy dream, and it felt so real. I felt the baby (or babies because i was thinking i was expecting twins in my dream) My belly was moving and tumbling all around and i loved it. I laid in bed and reminisced the feelings and emotions that came along with that. I miss that so much and i pray to God i get to feel that again and that i will have a good outcome next time, please. I was very weary in my dream too, feelings i know i would have through out a rainbow pregnancy. I was hugging my belly and constantly wanting the baby to move and kick. Being so overwhelmed with joy and love but worry hung over me like a thick black cloud. I could only imagine. I have been having many signs lately too that Stella is around and that she is with Jesus. Last night i was thrift shopping with my friend while the kids were at a skate party. I was rummaging through some nik nacks and there was this night light that had Jesus holding a baby and pointing to the child and to a small silver star frame that laid under and to the right of the night light. Then this morning i was chatting with my sister on the phone talking about Stella and my dreams last night and some cartoon character on TV started screaming "STELLA". As much as it hurts because this is all so raw, i know eventually i will find more comfort than "in your face pain" out of these "signs" and dreams. I hope so any ways........

God Bless & Thanks for reading....

~Krystal