I am in really dark times lately. I am considering making my blog private for awhile, i feel so exposed in this personal depression and it has been making me anxious and uncomfortable lately. Everything i do makes me feel this way and i am not too sure what to do about it. This depression seems to be getting worse, i am not sure if someone is praying for me to get help, which in turn is making this depression harder for me to handle on my own. Also i feel like this blog isn't doing much for anyone else because of its negative properties lately. This road is hard and if i cant find a way to help myself, how can i be helping anyone else? I read all the other mothers' blogs who have lost children and they're inspiring and strong. I am sure those are helping people. Mine however, is depressing, cold, sad, sorrowful and just plain negative most of the time. I am sorry to those it has hurt. My honest to the soul words are just as they read, sad. I will continue writing and may someday again make this public again.
Thanks as always for reading and Gob Bless. This blog will go private as of this Wednesday March 9th, Ash Wednesday and i may just run it private through Lent.
~Krystal
ten years
5 years ago
3 comments:
My own thoughts... the words that you type are sad, and you wonder how they help others. They help others by letting them know that what they are feeling is not abnormal. That they are not alone in the same feelings. They help your friends and family know how you are doing, and when you need words of encouragement and a great big hug. If you feel exposed, by all means make it a private blog. These entries are your deep down feelings, and it is ultimately up to you weather or not you want to share them publicly. Just know that we all love you, and love that you do have this blog. Know that we are here for you through thick and thin. I love you, Krystal!
xoxoxo Karie
Your honesty helps all who read it. It's good and healing to show your readers how you are truly doing. This journey is so hard to travel. I still find a blog and read her posts that were written at the same "time" when I am having several hard days. And almost always she was too at that time.
I am so sorry that you are having such a difficult time. Know that we are all here for you, to give support and prayers.
~C
This is your heart, dont be ashamed of that, ever....My depresion got very bad the first year...IT IS HARD, you are not alone...THis is why we are here, express your sadness and let others pray for you, love you and encourage you.
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