Just as grief comes in waves, this track from Phish really hits home with me. Its strange how lyrics of songs can change as your perspective on life and the circumstances of life change. I am sure people living in a different perspective will translate these lyrics much differently than I do. To me the "frothy cap and steady slap" is like being tossed around in the waves of grief and constantly being reminded of the grief, the missing and longing for my sweet little Stella bean. I gaze at myself not knowing myself at all anymore from what I was to who Ive become. Manning the decks is translated as going through the motions in life all while being rained upon. The moment of my daughters death may have passed but I will forever feel the winds.
Phish Moma Dance
and all throughout I gaze and glimpse you
loving never did convince you
I see you when you're all alone
it's like a person I've not known
the moment ends though I feel winds
blowing differently than ever before
and they're pushing me further from shore
a frothy cap the steady slap
of lines against the rail
a biting rain take in the main
up the rigging take in sail mind the skipper we'll not fail
he'll bring out wine all will be fine, just hear the order watch the sail
the moment ends.
ten years
5 years ago
1 comments:
Great song. Thanks for sharing those lyrics and glad that you are able to find some peace from songs. I completely agree with you how lyrics of songs all of a sudden have different meanings after experiencing a loss. Everything I hear feels different and sounds different. I sometimes wonder if songs were written with hidden messages of hurt or loss in them, but something that wasn't share with others. I know how important it is for me to find outlets such as blogging or sharing my baby's story, but maybe others found it by writing songs. Hang in there...and know I am thinking of you. ((hugs))
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