Dreaming Tree~ SOTD

I have always loved Dave Matthews Band, but this song has reached out and grabbed the inner of my core since the first time I heard it. But never did I think it could really grabe me as hard as it does now that my dreaming tree has died.  After Stella died, I have had the fear of having ANY dreams or aspirations to live towards. I feel they all get shot down and burned. EVERY.SINGLE.ONE.
Alive baby after months and month of HARD WORK- denied, More kids-denied, Buy a home-denied, start my own business-DENIED, Take a vacation- denied, have a real wedding-denied. Honeymoon-denied.... this list goes on and on and on....... My dreaming Tree had died and I'm left to just BE, just do what everyone or someone, just expects and WANTS, not what *I* want. cause what I want is wrong apparently.  *sigh* Im just tourting myself letting this happen.......
Letting the fear of failure and lack of support take away my dreams.  Whats a life with out dreams?

"Now progress takes away, what forever took to find"